GREENGREENGRASS

oneiroi and i

He knows not what he does, only that he has to be with me. He lurks and hides  but I can sense him. Though he is such a big part of me, I don't want him and that saddens him.  HIBM is Oneiroi.  He has real feelings, real purpose and real attachment to me.

 

The hour long, 3 minute ramen

Since returning from my two week out-of-town wedding fest I've been recovering.   It always takes me awhile to recover after a trip.  I came home pretty exhausted, sick and tired from traveling as well as all the bridesmaid/sister duties.  I feel like I am back at square one and trying to build myself back up again.

It just took me over an hour to get up from my desk, go to the bathroom, make a cup of ramen noodle soup and shuffle back to my desk.  Imagine spending over an hour in slow motion paranoid, with every step, that you're going to fall.  I hate the feeling and dread each journey when it comes to accomplishing a task.  It sounds strange that it could even take so long when I cook up complex dinners for large group of friends.  For those, I have my sous chef, Jason, a routine and everything is propped up, including me, like a staging area. With someone I can create mountains of food, alone simple tasks like cooking microwave ramen and getting it successfully to my desk, is my nemesis  

. It is sort of funny, but painful at the same time. I'm stubborn and try to beat "it" as if nothing can stop me, but it quickly puts me into my place. I'm stuck between sort of walking and not.

Even though it takes forever to do such a small task I must do it to maintain what walking ability I do have. Iit would be so much easier to quit.

By the way, all that and the ramen sucked.  To be expected, but alas the only thing I could make on a tired day like today.

 

 

The World According to Mister Rogers

It's 4AM and I can't sleep, so here are a couple Mister Rogers quotes...seems like a natural sequence of events. ;)

"I hope you're proud of yourself for the times you've said "yes," when all it meant was extra work for you and was seemingly helpful only to someone else." --Mister  Rogers

 "You rarely have time for everything you want in this life, so you need to make choices. And hopefully your choices can come from a deep sense of who you are. " --Mister Rogers

Mister Rogers  is an American children television series that was created and hosted by Fred Rogers.  Episodes didn't really have a plot, and consisted of Rogers speaking directly to the viewer about various issues in an inviting conversational manner, taking the viewer on tours of factories, demonstrating experiments, crafts, and music, and interacting with his friends. The half-hour episodes were punctuated by a puppet segment chronicling occurrences in the neighborhood of make believe filled with creepy looking puppets.  Premiering on PBS, it would become the longest-running show on public television network.  Every episode began the same way with him putting on his iconic sneakers and ended with him taking off his sneakers while singing the theme song,  'Won't you be my neighbor?'.  

I wasn't a fan of his show, though.  I in particular liked Mr Dressup, a Canadian children's television series that also integrated creepy puppets.  I know, I'm a traitor.  Mister Rogers was a little too "good or perfect" for me,  not that Mr. Dressup was some revolutionary outlaw in children's television ;).  But, later I kind of liked more offbeat kids programs like, 'You Can't Do That on Television' and the like.  I digress.  

Mr. Dressup was pretty much the same formula with a different delivery.  Mister Rogers seemed more stoic and controlled, and Mr. Dressup was a little more casual and quirky. Plus, he seemed to focus on making crafty artsy things. He  would lead children through a series of songs, stories, arts, crafts and imagination games, with the help of his "friends".  Yes, "friends". I don't know about you, but anyone who speaks to puppets voluntarily has to have a screw loose...and I mean that in a good way.

But, Mister Rogers won tons of awards including lifetime achievement award. He was very soft spoken, an American educator and actually a Presbyterian minister.  He was an advocate, on government level, for public broadcasting funding and education.  He also fought the manufacturing of VCRs when Sony and the television industry objected.  Fearful of home recordings they felt it should be regulated and taxed.  As if the entertainment industry needs more money, RIGHT? The Supreme court listened to his testimony and decided that recording did not infringe copyright.  He was all about community. As ONE you CANNOT do it, but TOGETHER, you CAN.  Scratch that, I shouldn't say ONE can't do it, but it does make it a whole lot easier if everyone is pitching in.